When you recite the Holy Names, you feel pressure in the chest, (Yes.) do you know why? (I have no idea.) There are lots of obstacles inside. There is some evil energy that refuses to leave. So, chant more to let it be liberated. Break through this barrier yourself. Do you also have problems with the (inner Heavenly) Sound meditation? (The [inner Heavenly] Sound is fine.) It’s fine? (Yes.) Wow, then it is great, it’s good. (I’ve come to America for nearly a year. I’m leaving, and so… My problem is, after seeing Master today, I don’t know if I’ll have a chance to see Master again.) I understand.
(So, when doing the [inner Heavenly] Sound meditation, sometimes I have a severe headache.) Are you forcing yourself too much? OK, when you are looking at me now, do you have a headache? No? (No.) Then, when you meditate on the (inner Heavenly) Light, you should do it in the same relaxed way. Look with your Wisdom Eye instead of physical eyes, then you won’t have a headache. If you are always anticipating and forcing yourself to concentrate, then there’ll be a headache. To concentrate our energy and attention, we do not force it with our mind. And, when we sit there, when we are truly relaxed, the light will appear suddenly. That is real concentration. It is not telling yourself, “I have to focus now. I have to focus now. I must focus now!”
(The problem is, Master, sometimes, I want to meditate, but the brain inside, this is a side effect, it says I need to rest. But then I do not want to rest, so there are a lot of struggles. Sometimes, I would spend the whole night, not meditating well and not taking any rest. Therefore, I really want to make a breakthrough…) I understand. (Every night is the same. Almost very little sleeping time. But not meditating well either. I don’t know what to do.) If you want to rest, then take a rest. Later when you get up, you will be energized, then meditate for a while again. It’s alright. If you feel tired during meditation, just take a rest, and then come back to meditate again. If you cannot sleep, then do it this way. If you can neither meditate nor sleep, then perhaps your mind is not very stable at the time. Go out and take a walk, or eat something. When your stomach is full, you’ll be sleepy. At least you can have a good sleep. (The main point is I don’t want to sleep.) Right! After you have had enough sleep, then get up and meditate. You’ll be more stable then. Otherwise, you may walk around in… the fresh air outside. What is it? (Fresh air.) Fresh air. After you walk a bit and get tired, your mind would not struggle too much, then you can meditate more stably.
Who is there? In the back. Behind there. (First…) You can speak when the green light is on. (First, thank You so much for personally granting me the initiation the day before yesterday. I am from mainland China. I went to Poland. waiting for You or other messengers in Poland, from last October till this November. Lastly, not long ago I heard from the headquarters in Taiwan [Formosa] saying that You might come here, and so I came here from Warsaw. It’s not very easy to come here. Yesterday You personally approved me. I thank You very much. This is the biggest thing in my life, my many lifetimes. This is the first thing.)
(Hallo! Master. My question is, when meditating on the [inner Heavenly] Sound, may I visualize?) Visualize what? (To visualize is to imagine, just imagine. That is to say…) Do not imagine when you are meditating on the (inner Heavenly) Sound. The (inner Heavenly) Sound is already very powerful that you can’t hear well enough. Why do you still need to imagine? (Right, I mean, sometimes, the superior [inner Heavenly] Sounds, for example, sometimes I heard those [inner Heavenly] Sounds. I’ve heard it before, but it hasn’t come again for a long time. So I feel that, maybe it would come more easily if I visualize it.) Oh, is that so? Then, it is not very good; don’t visualize. Let it come by itself. OK? (OK.) Perhaps you are too absorbed in visualizing and don’t notice it when it comes.
Take a few more looks at me, or you’ll regret it greatly after you go back to mainland China, OK? Look more, ask less, and listen more. Look as much as you can, and when you go back you can enjoy it slowly. Save it in your pocket.
(Master, I have three questions. The first one is: Both before and after the initiation, I hear only one [inner Heavenly] Sound. That [inner Heavenly] Sound, it comes naturally. However, I cannot expect when it will come. When it comes, it comes.) Whether it comes or not, just let it be. (Yeah, just let it be.) Are you comfortable? Do you feel comfortable? (Very comfortable, very good.) OK, then it’s no problem. (But this… I think, it’s… I also hear other [inner Heavenly] Sounds. The other [inner Heavenly] Sounds are like music, very high pitched, but very… At the beginning, it’s very soft. As I meditate more, it gets louder.) I see. (Then like this… Should I listen to both sounds?) Which sound? (The one that comes naturally, that sound.) Which… (I mean, the other sound, very soft, very soft, and gradually it will become louder.) Also very loud, understand. That one is good, that one is good. (That one is good, right?) You focus on it. It’ll become better and louder, that’s good. (OK.)
(My second question is, I really want to stop… all the plotting and scheming of this world, to earn money and all those things. However, in terms of my financial situation, I must earn money to support my family.) Of course. (What should I do?) Continue. Continue to earn money. I never told you to stop earning money. If you don’t earn money, your children would starve, and your wife would marry someone else. No money, no love.
(My last question, it is about a person, who is very shy and afraid of meeting strangers. When a stranger comes, she will hide, and doesn’t dare to come out and greet them. What can I do?) How old is this person? (She’s around 30 years old, 30 years old.) Male or female? Female? (Female. She is my wife.) If she doesn’t want to see people, just let her be. Why should you force her? Is she your daughter? (My wife.) Your wife? You have such a young wife? Wow! OK, let her be shy; it should be good, because, if you had a very… a wife with many social relationships, wouldn’t you be more worried? Traditional Chinese girls are all shy like that. It’s safe to be shy. (Thank You.) You ought to be glad. (Yes.) It is difficult for my “wives” to be shy. They are all so talkative. At the sight of a stranger, they would run over, “Master! Master! I am here! Hallo, hallo, hallo!” Very talkative. Those “wives” are very talkative, not shy at all. OK, your problems are not problems.
Someone else. (Master, I have a few questions.) Who? Where are you? (I am here.) OK. (The first one is: After practicing for some time, I just feel as if, suddenly I feel that this world is very meaningless. But I also know that Master told us to still do the things of this world. I find it very difficult to balance. On one hand, sometimes I feel the world is meaningless; I really don’t want to do anything, and sometimes when I do something I… I get attached to it. How do I keep the balance? So that I can do things wholeheartedly, yet not getting… not be attached to the world.) I also don’t know what to do. We both have the same problem. I also feel detached from this world, yet I have to dress up beautifully, wear high heels, etc., and greet guests here. I don’t know those guests. I don’t know most of them. They force me to know them. And I have to smile at them, talk to them, and answer their questions. What am I doing? I still have to do it.
When we are doing it, just enjoy it as much as possible. Just be happy with everyone. Why not. You die if you do it. You also die if you don’t. You will also die if you don’t do it. Just get by and do your best. When you have practiced longer, you’ll get used to it, used to doing worldly things, and not be so frustrated. You’ll still dislike it. You’ll still find it meaningless, but you won’t hate it so much. You won’t be so angry and dislike it that much. It’s like what the Zen people say: Before practicing spiritually you see a mountain as a mountain, and water as water. After practicing for some time, you see a mountain is not a mountain, and water is not water. And after practicing even longer, you again see a mountain as a mountain, and water as water. That’s how it is. Just continue to live on. I have no advice for you. It’s the same with me. What can I tell you? We are the same. (Thank You, Master.) We are all waiting to die.
Right, just look at yourselves, and you’ll know Master. You’d know that I’m not deceiving you, because, after you have practiced for some time, you no longer desire anything. Besides, why would I want to deceive you? What reason would I have to deceive you, telling you to do this or that? What for? I already desire nothing. It is because you want it. You like it very much. So, I just do whatever I can to make you happy, including sitting here. Anything that makes you happy, I would do. That is how it is, OK? Same thing. Thus, you can practice with peace of mind. I won’t deceive you. Because you are already very bored. After practicing spiritually for a while, you already become bored. Why do I bother? What else do I want? I just sit there talking. What else do I want from you? What else do I want from this world? We practice this method just like saving money in the bank. Anything else is just by the way. We can do it or not. Anyway, we just do what we should do. It’s like that, brother.
(May I ask one more question?) Yes. (My other question is: After initiation, I found that I have many bad thoughts and bad habits. I very much want to correct them, but it’s like, most times, it is difficult to control. It seems that, especially the negative thoughts, they just emerge unnaturally. I seem to sometimes feel that I’m struggling, very frustrated. Am I concentrating on the negative aspects too much? Or is it, I am… It seems to be disturbing me all the time.) I understand, understand. No problem, no problem.
Before practicing spiritually, we are unaware of our good or bad points. After we practice, because our level has been elevated, what’s inside of us internally… how do you say “awareness” in Chinese? (Awakening.) (Awareness.) Awareness? (Awareness.) (Consciousness.) Conscious awareness.) Conscious awareness. (Consciousness.) (“Conscience” is better.) (Subconscious.) (Conscience.) Our conscience! Our conscience has been elevated, so we can see our own good and bad points. Previously, we only saw the good or bad in other people, and not clearly even. Now, we can see ourselves more clearly. So, this illness is half cured. No problem. However, having an illness does not mean that we are bad. Our soul is always good. So, stop blaming yourself too much in that way. We should aim at the positive direction and continue to develop that way. Then, the other aspect, it’ll be bored, no one would care about it, and it’ll die on its own.
Photo Caption: Loving the Blue Sky, Rising Goal to the Infinite
